The Most Inconsequential Sex

the most
inconsequential sex
happens long
after the first flurries
and starts and stops
we don’t know 
is it?
is this?
oh fuck this is
and it is
and it is
and it is
and it is
something about that weird curl
hair in the wrong place

what was i focused on?
wait a minute i could do better than this
ok and it is
it is
ok i’m tired
weird stale odors
fresh air
who am i
my balls feel heavy
there it is again
again again again again again
no i’m just
and there it is
we’re both just too closed down now to see how inconsequential another would be and so we do

June 20 2019